If you have ever been on a mission trip, or been to summer camp you probably understand the feeling of having no idea how to describe your experience to someone else. God does such amazing and radical things in your life in such a short amount of time that while it makes sense to you there is no concievable way to put it into words that will make sense to other people.
I just tried to start a post describing some of the amazing things that God has been doing in my heart, I didn't make it very far into the post before I realized I had no idea how to connect what was on my mind with my fingers typing. I will say that I have experienced God's grace and love and correction in my life in amazing ways in the first three weeks of this summer project. It amazes me that the summer is not even halfway over yet.
One thing I have learned a ton about in these first weeks is God's provision. I came to project trusting that God would provide me a job this summer as a means of outreach into the community. More specifically I came to project thinking that I would of course get a job within the first week and that it would be the job that I applied for and really wanted. That is not what God had in store for me. I finished up my third day of work on Saturday at not the place that I thought I would end up, after almost three weeks of job hunting, in which I really learned what it meant to wait expectantly on the Lord. The thing I learned about waiting for God's provision that is the most profound I think, is that God will answer prayers in his own way and in his own time, that means that as we wait for the Lord to provide our prayers, we can still be doing things. I think that I applied to at least thirty jobs before I got a call back about one of them. Everyday I would pray that God's will would be done and that he would provide me with a job, but everyday I was still applying to more places to allow God to work through that effort. It doesn't mean that we can pray to God and then "figure it out" ourselves, or pray to God and then do what we want anyway, but praying expectantly does mean that when we pray we have to take steps to put ourselves in situations that allow God to move and work in our lives. That was a hard and humbling lesson for me to learn right off the bat. But one thing that God made abundantly clear through this experience is that he works in mysterious and amazing ways, and that living trusting in him will always be interesting.
Romans 8:28
